crunch time

I will be on my merry way home in just over 24 hours, and I'm amazed at how glad I am about that. It's been a pretty good semester, but I'm just tired and worn out. I need to go home, and I'm glad that I get to do that tomorrow.
I'm trying to buckle down and WRITE my final paper for lit. theory, already, but I'm having a lot of trouble caring enough to write a good paper. And knowing that I have to spit out an Ethics paper after that doesn't make it any easier, even though both are relatively short and not really that difficult to write.
Brit missed her jury for bass lessons yesterday, which is definitely bad. Basically it means she is screwed for any kind of decent grade in that, because she has to be graded on performance (since that's the Hamline Plan credit that goes along with the course) and the only day that the jury met was yesterday. I feel so crappy for her; that would suck so absolutely. I don't have any understanding of how that might affect a person, but I'm pretty sure I'd be banging my head against the wall. She, however, is handling it with much more maturity and grace than I suspect I might.
At least classes are done. I had really good courses and profs. this semester, but I'm so tired and there has been such an incredible amount of shit that has happened in the lives of so many of my friends that I just want to go home and be with them. I don't want to get into any details (because details would take volumes upon volumes in order to explain everything properly) but suffice it to say that I need to spend some time with them.

Aaargh!!

Finals! They're killin' me, man. Not really. I'm already finished with two classes, which is awesome. At the end of my Brit. Lit. final today (which was TOUGH, by the way!) my prof. asked me to come see her in her office later, so I started to freak out and tried to remember if there were assignments I had somehow missed or something, but such was not the case. She asked what year I was, and when I told her I was a sophomore, she said, "Well, what I have to say to you might then be irrelevant," and she told me that she was going to ask me to apply to the conferences that English majors can apply for but that they usually only consider juniors/seniors who have gone through the Seminar course already, which I have (obviously) not done yet. She told me that my being a sophomore only made my work more remarkable (!!!!!) and that she hoped I would keep it in mind.
And I am not using this as an outlet for bragging or anything, but this just made my day so wonderful. I know I should be over the whole worrying if I'm good enough in my major and worrying about not having any skills, but I'm not. I usually manage to put up a much more secure front than I actually have, and so this was so incredibly reassuring and wonderful for me.
I'm the same way about working at the Oracle; most of the time I just think I'm wasting their time or taking up space. Which is probably not necessarily true, but I feel so worthless around there sometimes! Then again, if I were really worthless, Graham and Manney probably wouldn't be as nice to me as they are. So maybe it's all okay.
I also had my R.A. interview yesterday. I think it went reasonably well, but now that I know they are interviewing a total of ten people for the position and two of those people are already C.A.s on campus, I'm really not expecting to get it anymore at all. But who knows, I guess it could happen, I'm just very aware that the odds aren't too much in my favor.
Truly, today has been so much better than I would have expected. I still have two papers to finish up for Lit. Theory and Ethics by Thursday, but I'm actually planning (hoping) to finish them tomorrow so that I have all day Thursday to clean up our room and to pack and such. I'm so thrilled to be going home on Thursday! I just have to remember to call Dad and tell him to bring some Christmas cookies with him for the ride home. And to pack up all my laundry and sweaters for skiing and stuff. I wasn't very excited about going skiing, and I'm still not, but maybe it will be more fun than I anticipated. Who knows, right? seems to be my phrase of the day.
Well, I've got to work and get going on those papers today as well, so I'm out for now, but I haven't been wanting to blog in ages and suddenly today was overcome with a need to write SOMETHING, anything, so at least I have this outlet. Huzzah for blogs.